how do i deal with a *******?
it's super pissifying to realise that i've been in a state of oblivion all this while. i'm sure i have the right to know. where's your sense of responsibility!? i wish i could face this with attitude. do i look like i give a damn? but it's hard. everything's just so superficial.. so shallow.. i cant believe i actually fell into this set trap. i feel so dumb. sigh. but i'll learn.

behind this facade.. what more could i wish for?

new shoes! from my sister! from perth! it's so pinky and sweet (:
small lil' things make me happy. like, a smile.

we prayed for no technical errors.
but that didnt happened.
maybe it wasn't fervent enough.
maybe we hoped too much..
maybe this is just a form of consolation for ourselves.

God has his purposes.
perhaps we'll learn to grow stronger after a defeat. no, two defeats.

i am sure we did well.
in our friends' eyes and in our own hearts.

every distraction is now gone. time for serious stuff.

we'll ALWAYS BE THERE - gEmz* (: